By anonymous
Date: 14 February 1998

something in his eyes

austin,.....do you have any idea how i've felt about you since our freshman year
in high school? It was science class when i found out who you were. I was
reluctant to give any thoughts at first at how much i liked you. I dreaded going 
to class, because i knew you would be there, and i couldn't handle it. The way you 
looked at me, with a sense of hurt and happiness in your eyes, just tore me apart. 
Austin, if you're reading this, i want you to know that ever since then, i've felt 
everything in my heart about you. Whether it's sadness, happiness, or anger. 
Emotions run through me everytime I see you. Please know I wanted to ask you 
to the formal dance our sophomore year, but i was so afraid of rejection-i would've 
died if you had said no. But i guess i'll never know, will i? Now we're juniors in 
high school, and part of me wants to forget you ever existed-because it hurts to 
much to like you the way i do. And another part of me wants to never forget you-
because i have never felt about anyone the way i've felt about you. I realize that
 at our ten-year high school reunion we'll probably see each other, and maybe be 
able to talk. Why can't it be like that now? We're scared of each other in an 
unspoken way. To close, i would just like to let you know, austin, that i will 
never forget your eyes, and the way you've looked at me. It melts my heart, don't 
you know?......