By Sarah
Date: 16 February 1998

My Love Will Never End

My Love Will Never End

He came to me shyly hardly saying one word
I'd been watching him for so long and now he was here
What could I do? I loved him for so long 
And the relationship was one to cherish
But the day came when he couldn't handle the feelings
And left me to a world of loneliness and despair
He had an excuse that left me dangling
"I'm going to college," he said.
I never understood; he wasn't leaving for a year
I would have to let him go and spread his wings
I wanted to die but all I could ever do was cry and hope he felt the same
I wanted him to feel my pain and I hoped it was stabbing him 
As hard as he had stabbed my hear, but harder.
I wished for him to die a long painful death and I wanted to do it.
But I couldn't and I wouldn't because I loved him.
The love I have inside would never die although I wanted it to. 
He kept jabbing me with pain and ripped my heart even more
But I still loved him, never hated him.
The pain was unbearable and the hurt was too much 
But I went on, never giving up hope, never hoping too much. 
The memories were hurtful but became bliss in my eyes.
The dried up roses, pictures and letters were treasures to behold
Nobody understood, "why do you love him?" they say
Because I can and I will. 
Ne'er once did he stop hurting me even after I left him alone.
Could he not get enough of my pain as to rub it in my face more?
I hated him and ignored him 
But my love will never end. 
The bruises are diminishing but the memory of the harsh pain still remains.
The scars on my heart will always be there 
to remind me of the battery that my heart took
He's getting smaller and he never ends hurting me 
One day he will grow up and learn of all the pain he caused and be sorry
But I won't know it because he won't come to me. 
Sometimes I think he is ill in the heart,
So hard is he that maybe he has no heart anymore.
Feelings and emotions are not evident in his life
He doesn't care who he hurts and offends.
To him, he means everything to himself.
I will always be there for him and encourage him to turn his ways to good
But he will not listen to me.
So, I must wait patiently for a sign to go to him.
Will the sign ever come? 
Will I ever have a chance? 
I can't even love another because of unresolved issues
He thinks they are dead but are in fact alive in my heart. 
All I want is to feel his touch and smell his distinctive smell
I want to be against him and kiss his sweet lips.
Why will I never have this opportunity?
Is all hope gone? 
Even if he never sees the hurt 
and realizes the excruciating pain he has caused
My love will go on.