By Alan B
Date: 26 February 1998

untitled OR I miss you and I can't explain why

i lie awake at nights now
 thinking of you
wishing i were with 
 you instead
wondering if you ever
 missed me
wondering if i ever
 knew you at all

did you know we both got married at 26?
isn't that strange?
How long did he court you
 or was it the other way around
How does he treat you
How do you treat him
Are you happy? with
 the choices you have made
I've found (too late?) that
 i am not
Why did i have to love you so?
Why are there still tears in my eyes
 sixteen impossible years later?
I miss you and I can't explain wny

I can't believe I never stopped loving you
I thought I was over this a long time ago
You know, Oprah says "When someone shows you their
true colors - believe them the first time."
Do you know you could still have me in a heartbeat?
I called you up - but what do you think?
Are you embarrassed that I am resurrected from
your lover's graveyard?
Would you like to play with me again?
Would you also discard me again?
Did you ever care at all?
I don't know, I just don't know.
I miss you and I can't explain why