By elizabeth
Date: 5 February 1998

why?

why did I believe for so long
that you would be the one for me
that we would be so happy 
together, forever

why did I not see 
the differences in personality, in habits, in communication
because I wanted to go on believing I could be 
happy with you
and you could be happy
with me

why was I blinded by the desire
for your warmth, your
touch, your love

blinded to the point where
I threw my own self away
supplanting it with the better
life that I thought you offered

why is it then that when I figure it all out
I still feel lonely, lost and 
needing you?