By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 11 November 1999

Fractured Longing

*********I'm missing you as I remember kissing you even when your breath
                           was bad
    you had this way of kissing that I had never experienced
                           kissing you (even when your breath was bad)
          was the Best Experience in the world
             it was Welcoming
                  and Thrilling
          and Soft and Filling
              and suddenly I knew what it meant
          to Hear Bells
          to feel the rest of the world dissipate
            and be complete & found
                inside a kiss
********I MISS YOU, you jerk!!!!
     Why did you have to take You away
               from Me?
      Why did you have to discontinue the Miracle of
               **US**??????
     I know you felt it, too
  the First Time
and the Last Time
     and every time in between...
   ****as I miss you I remember when I was looking in the cabinet in your 
 bathroom for clues for mystery for secrets
       (because a burned woman remains suspicious)
                 [for the rest of her life]
   and I found an unbelievably huge economy size bottle of mouthwash
       and I smiled as I realized you bought it because I criticized 
                    your bad breath.