By Misti V. Rainwater
Date: 13 October 1999

When I Was New

before he came to the conclusion
that he didn't crave me
before he decided that I
was dispensable
    there were primitive
       sacred moments
    between us
in the beginning, especially
when I was new
like the first snow
    of the season
he would bite my neck
[subconsciously screaming to the world at large]
(that I was HIS)
he would suck greedily
at my breasts
until I thought my nipples
would fall off
he would try to climb
inside my womb
and then rest on me
and in me
breathing hard
dripping sweat
(and oh, Sweet Jesus!)
[i swear i didn't mind]
     he would stare
  into my eyes
 caress my face
   hold my hands so tight
 I felt for a moment
   my bones might break
 he took EVERYTHING
   and I said
 TAKE MORE!!!

   but that was when
     he thought
    I had something
   that was when
     he got turned on
   just breathing
      me in
  that was back in the days
      of miracles
   and magic
 and Maybe She's The One.