By erin
Date: 25 January 2000

no idea

     why do i let you tie me up 
      hold me down
  crush my heart
   either intentionally or not

because i thought i was stronger

      than this
          than you
    than my heart

but it becomes clear to me 
  that i am not
            not at all

and i sink (physically, emotionally)
   my heart implodes;
      it absorbs all feeling

and i let you hurt me ONCE AGAIN
     You let me sit here 
        alone and cry
 (but really you don't let me)

because you don't know
  (you don't know any of this)