By Swtliz  (yahoo.com)
Date: 4 December 1999

Must Change

                     Date: DEc 13, 1998


Sitting here with only my thoughts for company I see my life flash before my
 eyes. Visions of emptiness and hard aches fill my thoughts of sadness. Pain of
  a broken heart intertwined with madness is all that I can touch and feel. For
   my life is cast with unknown love. A reality of loneliness enters my heart.
    Within that moment I know my life must change.   I must not take those
     around me for granted for one day they may be gone with out a word or
      trace. I must live my life "day one day at a time" and realize how happy
       and lucky I am.


I must not dwell on the sad time or try and find excuses for my behavior for I
 am who I am and that is all I am. I may not be perfect but I am somebody with
  feelings. Even if those feelings that have not know happiness or love.  Part
   of who I am has died and I can not get back the loss time or memories but I
    can only thank god for giving me the strength to move forward. In search of
     a better life for my son and me. One day I know I will find my happiness
      that I deserve and crave. I will always have the love and understanding
       in my heart and the compassion for a better life. A life without
        understandings, communication, and above all ,


`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`LOVE`.`.`.`..`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`.`


Is a life without any meaning.
     
Liz '98