By kevin urenda
Date: 14 December 1999

deaf eyes

I can 
take care of my own heart 
and guide it all by myself to a 
thoroughly gray 
and dull existence 
without ever risking the 
wounds that are inevitable when you 
love someone so much that 
you can't think about anything 
being more important than the next breath you take 
while looking into the eyes of 
someone who loves you back 
with every bit as much of their heart 
as you always dreamed someone would 
and because of that you want to 
record every feeling they fill you with 
because no one has ever felt quite this way 
in the whole of history because our souls 
are unique and chance has brought them 
to this place at this time and in this language 
whose words we choose carefully 
as though we might tear them if we 
grip them too hard in our minds 
and even if these words fall 
before deaf eyes 
you have always befallen the best of my dreams 
and you always will 

12.13.99