By pix
Date: 20 December 2000

you hug

i knew you'd hug me goodbye,
it was a given,
you always do,
and even though it's been a while,
i expected a hug just the same.

but i didn't think the hug would be the same,
like they used to be,
didn't think you'd hold me tight,
cause that means something different,
than it should. i think.

but you did,
you hugged me like you use to,
tightly, so i could feel your beating heart,
long, so you wouldn't have to let go,
right away.

and at first it was natural,
didn't think much about it,
but you held me close so long,
that i began to wonder,
what you wanted to show me.

you could have hugged me like that
because you were sorry,
because you knew you messed up,
and because you wanted me to know that,
but you couldn't find the words.

it could have been so that i wouldn't be mad,
so that i'd melt and forgive you,
so that we could move on from there,
and just finally be friends,
or at least pretend to be.

but it could have been because you missed me,
because you were sorry for what you did,
not only that but you wanted another chance,
to start over and you wanted me to know that,
but just me, and not the world.

or maybe you did it because it felt good,
because you were confused,
but this felt good dispite,
i was confused as i ever could be,
but i held you just as tight, just as long.

i know those hugs are for one girl,
one girl who holds your heart,
and that girl was me last night,
maybe you wanted to know if i felt the same,
well if you do, so do i.

i guess if you call me we'll see what will happen,
but i know one thing,
if you hug me like that again,
you'll know how i feel,
cause i'll never let go... i'll turn it to our kiss.
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