By me aka Niki Fullmoonlover69@yahoo.com
Date: 4 December 2000
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She walks in beauty
She walks allone
Call her cold and hard
But She made walls around her heart
so That no one could hurt her
She was hurt to many times
And she cried all the tears God had given her to last a lifetime
She loved him with all she had in her
But she also hated him with all she had in her
She vowed to herself that she wouldn' fall again for any guy
Because they are not worth it
and only go on breaking your heart
If you don't care you keep your head and when it's all over you won't feel your heart stinging and dying
So she never let her feelings start to grow and pushed them away only to dump them
But then she met him
First as a friend
A guy she didn't even know but the first time she spoke on the phone with him it was for 4/5 hours
They got to know each other and stayed talking on the phone
sometimes till late in the night
They talked about their lives and feelings and they told each other secrets
It was as if it was meant to be
Then they kissed
And he was so sweet and held her hand
The walls around her heart were breaking
he was making a little hole in them, wether she wanted it or not
He was there when she needed him, she was all alone
He give her the attention, the touches and talks she needed and got from other guys for whom she didn't care but never from her true love
But like everything the fairy tale of a day came to an end
Because His best friend was her ex
And you could say that she was his first love
and he realy cared for her, she didn't feel the same
And he got hurt in the end
They stayed friends, but he didn't want his best friend to go with her
He repected that so everything came to an end
And for the first time in a long time she cried
She cried because she lost him
She realy needed him
The damp tears just rolled down her cheeks only she didn't make any noise like the rain outside
She almost forgot what is was like to cry
She came over it pretty fast
and they stayed "friends"
But he didn't talk to her that much
and moved on
in a way she missed the old days
all she wants back is the old him she met for the first time on the phone
the one that knew her inside out after a few conversations and the one that opend up to her and trusted her
and always made her feel good
where has he gone?
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