By Me
Date: 26 December 2000
How Can We?
How can we laugh,
and smile though all this pain.
doesn't it seem,
so completely insane?
To ignore the pain,
and grief we both feel.
in exchange for something,
that we thing feels so real.
But I stop,
and think of my life without you.
and thats not something,
I want to go thorugh.
To face each new dawning day,
Not waking up with you by my side.
So for now,
I will just hold all this pain and fear inside.
So I'd rather smile,
And pretend its all fine.
Rahter then let you go,
and say goodbye.
Because maybe one day,
you will see my how I see you.
and realize that all these things,
we are going though,
was worth it ,
in the end.
and it was wise of,
us to pretend.
to smile through,
all the tears,
and not to have succombed to all our fears.
I gave myself so quickly,
Because I thought I was nothing.
But when I am with you,
I feel like I am something.
Thats why I cling to you,
I wish you were the one.
Because all the things that once seemed so great to me,
Now just don't seem so fun.
All the meaningless flames,
and all loves lost.
made me realize,
that love has such a high cost.
I am sorry,
for putting you though all this.
You are not the only one being torn apart by this love,
that started with just one kiss.
I wouldn't trade you for anything,
And I would do anything to make you see.
Or maybe you already know how I feel,
But its just not supposed to be me.
You feel like home to me,
A place I thought I would never see
because life has taken me so many places,
places I should never have to be.
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