By Me aka Niki
Date: 11 April 2001
8 guys
I met this guy at my sisters party
He was the 'dj'
That day I came back from Camping with school
And I slept the whole day
And when I woke up
All of a sudden there was a party in the garden
I went up and there he was
From the beginning
He asked me my phone number
Told me to sit in his lap
Told me my eyes were pretty
Asked me to go into the garedn with him
I told him no and he went alone , came back and asked again
I went
And There happend my first kiss
I pulled away and told him sorry and left him standing
He never called, I didn't care
Then there was the guy
That fell head over heels for me
And I just liked him, nothing special
He was so sweet, kissed me with his eyes closed
Called me from a wedding
Called me to tell me about his great day
Tried to be everywhere I was if I just asked him
He asked me to go steady twice
I said " I don't know" The truth was I didn't want to
I stopped everything with him because i wasn't allowed to date
And my parents found out
Since I wasn't so into the guy I told him it was over
Before the real problems could even start in the house
He was heartbroken
Today I regret doing it
After that I met the guy that I fell in love with
And love still
The bad-boy guy
With a lot of girls
He lied to me
And in the beginning I just didn't know
And I stayed coming back to him
After months of learning
I knew excatly when Something was wrong
And when he was lying
I tried resist when he would come back but by then I was in to deep
He told me I was special
He told me he wanted something serious but never did anything about it
We never went out together, He told me to keep it a secret
he told me he wanted to sleep with me
I never let him
The farthest i ever went with a guy was with him
He broke my heart time after time and I cried so much
Today I can't cry anymore
He made me who i am today, stronger and harder
The bad part is, i'm depressed a lot
And I just don't care anymore
We were on and off 7 times for 9 months
The last time he left me for this girl
And i truly believed he would came back, as always
And everything would start all over again
But he stayed with her, he still is
They love each other I see it in his eyes
It kills me
New year he told me again he wanted to sleep with me
I never went into the offer, he was with her then
While I was with THE Guy
There were some other
Like the dumb one that drives the big jeep now
He tried to get something
Never got very far
When I was on vacation there was someone else
A sweet guy with a baby face
he asked me to steady I said no
He became to slimy on me
And I ignored him as much as possible
Then you have the best friend
The one I hugged and would walk hand in hand with at school
Everyone telling us we should go steady and that we were so cute together
In their eyes we matched
I kiss him
And told him I wanted to be just friends
I knew he wanted more I saw it in his eyes
The prefect guy, again
Smart, sweet, cute, devoted, my best friend
But my heart was somewhere else
He just didn't intrest me
I don't look at the cute guys
I have had my share of ugly
But mentally, I have high standarts
They have to be intresting and challeging and have to have that something
He wasn't in my eyes
This guy I talked to him once on the phone
And I didn't know who he was, nor did he know who I was
We talked for 5 hours
Months later I met him
Beautifull eyes
He came by with friend were I was late at night
And send me messages on my phone with I love you and his number
I called we talked for 2 weeks after that
I began to fall again for the first time since my first love
He was a dare devil, challeging to understand his way of thinking
he was a mystery to me I loved it
He was just to perfect in my eyes
And I could talk to him about anything
We kissed and it was bliss
But his best friend
Was the guy that was in love with me
The third one
And he didn't want his ex with his best friend
He cared a lot and I hurt
I'm his only ex untill now
He has this on girl for a long time now
So the friend told me nothing could happen anymore
And to my shock I cried when I left him
Something I had only done for the one guy
I still like him a lot
I got a crush on a other guy
And I kissed him
He called, once
I called, once
He wasn't anything I wanted
I still talked to him though
Because I heard he said he liked me
He told me he didn't want anything serious
Nothing more happend
And frankly I don't care
Then we are back at the best friend again
But nothing special going on
Just fun and games
I still mis my first love
I regret that I broke up with the perfect guy
And I want to know what could have been with his best friend
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