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By Taboo Date: 2001 May 31 Comment on this Work [[2001.05.31.14.40.22051]] |
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We had dated for more than a year. The love making was awesome The best I ever had He said it was the best for him too. We played cards together Went to movies Went to quaint restaurants Sometimes he cooked Sometimes I cooked We ate by candlelight It was so romantic We never ran out of things to discuss. Sometimes our discussions became heated But it would always turn into laughter. He was so affectionate And we spent almost every weekend together He searched for me in the night Made me feel so special, always Sort of like a combination between A best friend And a red hot lover. It was wonderful. I began to fall in love with him. He used to get so excited when I would come over Leaping in the air And chasing his kids around the house Getting them all wild. I asked his daughter one time "Is he always like this ?" She replied, 'No.... only when you come over..' His kids loved it when I came over they loved to see him so happy and elated. His kids began to tell me that they loved me. I was getting very attached to them and to him. One night, I told him that I was falling in love with him. He said he was very flattered but that he did not feel the same. He said that he would never love me, But that he wanted to remain lovers until one of us found our soul mate. And that he would always be my best friend. I was devastated. I am two years older than him. He said that was the major reason why he was not interested in a long term relationship with me. I accepted it. It hurt deeply.. But I learned to live with it. He said that we should both continue to pursue other relationships And keep meeting new people. Reluctantly, I agreed. Suddenly things began to change My friend began inviting me over less and less. He stopped calling less and less. We went for weeks without seeing each other. He started making a habit of just seeing me once a week.... to satiate his strong sex drive. None of the other women in his life Could satisfy him the way that I did. He knew it. And so did I. Basically, we just used each other To release our strong sex drives. It was wonderful..... But I continued to fall deeper and deeper in love with him. He knew and I knew, that I was going to get hurt. I continued dating other guys, as per his suggestion. We began to see less and less of each other. He did some things which he calls honesty Which I call cruelty. Like telling me about what he was doing with the other women. I didn't want to hear it. Inviting me over, and then later in the evening, apologizing for calling me so late..... but his original date had cancelled.... and I was a fill in. After, all, he was being honest. One candlelight dinner, almost choked me. While I was eating the gourmet rib-eye He announced that the woman it was intended for stood him up..... and I was eating her meal. I left immediately, and cried all the way home. Recently, I have met someone who treats me good. Who treats me like a queen And makes me feel real special.... I have told my super honest friend about him. And how things are getting serious with my new friend.... So now Mr. Honesty.... is going crazy... Suddenly he can't get enough of me... He keeps calling me.... At work. At home. Almost every day..... Trying to find faults with my new love. Reasons, why I should stop seeing my new love. Trying to convince me,..... he is my best friend., and doesn't want me to settle for anything less than the best..... Which is what Mr. Honest thinks he is.... He wants me to cheat on my new love With him. After all.... we are not married And don't have a committment yet..... Why all of a sudden, is he so crazy about me... And is ignoring everyone else.... Wants to see me constantly.... Can anyone tell me why ???? WHY ? .. |