Yesterday I heard the date that you are leaving
Immediatly I counted the days (11 days)
And I got sad, god knows why
My friend was at my house
And she has been telling me for some time now that I need closure
I need to tell you everything that I have always wanted to tell you
Because only then can I close this chapter of my life and go on
I know I should, but I'm afraid
Afraid of your reaction, afraid that you'll tell her
And I don't know how the hell I'm going to approach you with this after 10 months
It's pathetic, you'll think I'm crazy and obssesed
And right now we are in a fight (you called me a bitch)
So that makes it even worse to start a conversation with you
I have a problem her
I think that I have 10 days to decide how my life is going to be for a long time
Because If i don't tell you, everything will stay the same
I'll still cry for you even after all this time
I won't want anybody else because I only want you
I'll feel depressed and lonely, you'll always be on my mind
I won't wonder "what if"
If I do tell you
I have the feeling that a big weight would be carried of my back
All of my speeces in my head will be said
I won't have to write poems to you (like this one) because That's the only way to reach you
And maybe maybe then can I sleep peacefully at night
And forget you and everything you put me thru
Maybe then..