By Isabella Svenska
Submitted by Isabella Svenska
Date: 2001 Jul 14
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Forgotten

Forgotten

You have become a distant memory
I forgot how much I loved you
how much I needed you
as I feel the lump in my throat
I have forgotten you

As I think of how I felt when we were together
as I remember what life was like with you
how I felt when you touched me
as my eyes well up with tears
I have forgotten you

As I sit here trying to remember
how we slept together so peacefully
how we made love so sweet
how you held me in your arms
and I forgot there was a world other than us when we were together
as the tears burn my face
I have forgotten you

As I ponder of what was
as I think of what might have been
as I remember  your loving embrace
and how it could have been
as I recover and hold back my sorrow
I have forgotten you

When you call with an explanation
when you think it can be repaired
When you say you want to be us again
and you did it because you were scared

I wanted to respond
I only have memories of pain and hurt and sorrow
and the betrayal of what you did
how you hurt me and crumbled my world
how life seemed to stop and pain took over my being
but all I can say is you have to forget the past
and I have forgotten

As I tell you it is irreparable
and deny my feelings again
and tell you it is too much, too soon, too little, too late
and I can't forgive your sin
as I hold back my tears and regain the strength to tell you no
I can only think of memories that will only live in the past
and the past is not the present
and I have forgotten

As I heard the tears in your voice
as you hung up the phone
I regained my strength because of the decision I made
I sat and remembered what once was
conflicted, sad and more powerful than I thought I could ever be
how I was so proud for being so strong
because I told you to forget me and not to live in the past
because you broke my heart, betrayed my trust and thought of my feelings last
I can't help but remember you
but that is all in the past and I have a future
unseen, unchartered, unwritten
and I have forgotten you.