By Jon
Date: 2001 Nov 19
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Rebound Guy

Rebound Guy

I've only loved twice
Once I'm not so sure about but the other I'm pretty confident
That I was in love
It was like staged magic
What you see on the stage isn't necessarily what's happening
There was stuff behind the scenes that explained all the flash and flair

I've dated a lot of women in my life....

I've built up quite a resume
I've dated the prettiest
The nicest
The sweetest
The kindest
The most obsessive
The most mundane
The best
The worst
The in between
And the same

I've built up quite a name for myself
I'm known as Mr. One Night Stand
I'm like a disposable poncho...
I'm used as shelter for the rain
And when the clouds and rain drops go away
I'm thrown away, just to be found by another
To help them through the storm
Just an endless cycle for me
Sure, I'm being used
But maybe that's all I'm really good for

Maybe I'm just a great rebound guy
Maybe that's what I'm good at
To help give back confidence and make them feel special again
And when they get their fill they move on
To bigger and brighter things
I figure I'm a bonfire that's used to warm their hands
And once their hands are warm enough they're ready to move on
To that bigger camp fire and warm their entire body

But sometimes...

I wish I could be a blanket
So they would carry me everywhere with them
On all of the adventures and trips and sleep-overs they go too
So I can always be there to provide them with warmth

Or maybe...

I'm just tired of being cold and wet
For once, I'd like to be rescued from the storm and have my hands warmed
For once, I'd like to be the one using instead of the one being used
For once, I would just like something real
A blanket of my own to carry with me
And I would carry that blanket with me everywhere
I would wash it when it needed to be washed
And I would always sleep with it
Wrap it around me and hold on tight
Fight through the storm and make it together
If just given the chance

But then again...

I don't think there is a person in this world willing to do that for me
I'm always there when they need me, but when I need someone
Suddenly they aren't there anymore
I've been hurt too many times then I'm willing to admit

My hair is so wet
My hands are so cold
I've run out of tears
And I'm sick of being so nice
Friends tell me being nice only leads the way for someone to be mean to you
I'm starting to think they're right

Maybe...

It's just easier to close my heart
And not let anyone in
Close out my heart to romance
LOL if I ever had it that is
I dont think anyone counts one night stands as romance

Remember though...

If it starts to rain, and you look in the trash and you find that poncho
And if you only intend to use it to shelter you from the rain
And just throw it away later when the clouds are gone and the sun is up
Just to get an umbrella instead
Because this poncho has holes in it...
I just rather be left in the trash where I belong....

Don't you think so?