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By Jon Date: 2002 Jan 17 Comment on this Work [[2002.01.17.12.43.23797]] |
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"You've ruined it for the next girl in my life, I will never be the same, and I will never do the things I did for you." is what I said to you. I was trying to be mean, but you know what? It's true. You took my love manipulated it into something that fit your needs, and when you got your fill, you threw it away. I've met girl after girl and each and every one I have turned away when they got as close to my heart as you did. Look what you did to me. I'm afraid of being hurt, I'm afraid of giving in, I'm afraid of loving someone again, because I keep thinking that, in the end, they will just end up hurting me like you did. What you did to me forever changed the way I look at myself, relationships and love. I don't want to be like this, just another guy in this world afraid of a real relationship. I want to fall in love again. And now... I've met this other girl. She has one of those smiles that can coax you into doing almost anything, eyes that light up the room and your heart, and a heart and soul which poets could write endless love sonnets about. It's hard not to let her in because every time that I'm with her I notice that she is getting closer and closer to my heart, without me being aware of it and allowing it. I want to let her in. I want to take her into my arms and never ever let go, like you let go of me. I want to love her. My friends tell me to just let go of everything, to just "Move on damnit" and its not like I haven't moved on from loving you. I have. I just haven't moved on from what you did to me, and I can't. Believe me I've tried and I have the tears to prove it. But she's different. She has a heart of pure gold and there is just something about her that I...just..can't...let...go of. She is beautiful, charming, sweet, caring and lovable. She could never hurt me right? But then again... I thought the same thing about you... |