By Me aka Niki
Date: 2002 Feb 12
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[[2002.02.12.16.53.2574]]

once a player always a player

5:30 A.M. New Year
An empty room were a few hours ago 2000 people stood was now almost empty
On the stage, our first kiss
The 2nd he sended me an email with his phone number
I called, we spoke more then 5 hours
Everything went uphill from then
I remember the first time he came by, with ice cream
And the night we stood on a hill with a breathtaking view
Over the weeks he said he cared
He promised me he would try
He told me I was different, special
He confessed that I had changed him
He was a player but he said that I was special and that he actually cared,..He was trying for me
Then after a month he said he didn't know what he felt
A bad feeling came creeping through
Deep inside I knew it was over
He says that his feelings flew away, that he can't totally commit or change and that he isn't good enough for me
I guess I couldn't change him enough,...and I'm stuck with this missing and longing
I know he cared I know he didn't hurt me intentionally but
Once a player always a player