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By Jon Date: 2002 Feb 12 Comment on this Work [[2002.02.12.22.59.19790]] |
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I'll miss you and I'll always love you...goodbye I wish I didn't need you so much. There, I said it and I mean it. I really don't understand how you got this close to my heart so deeply and quickly. Maybe there was already a hole for you to fit in to begin with. I don't know. All I know is that I love you. I love you because you make the sun in my world shine just a little bit brighter. I love you because when its cold outside, I really don't mind just as long as I know that I'll be seeing your warm smile. I love you because as soon as we hang up the phone I want to pick it right back up and call you back. I love you because I feel comfortable around you. You know the area around your house has become a sanctuary for me, it's one of the only places in this world that I feel comfortable being in and that's only because I know you are near. You're like sunshine and rain. You bring warmth into my world and usher in life by sprinkling your life-giving water throughout my soul. I want you forever, but good intentions never win. But you never want to fall in love again. I understand what you've been through your whole life. I've been there and I've been through the same kind of hurt. I understand that he hurt you. I understand that you truly love him and yet he still hurts you. I understand everything that you've been through. And yes you are justified for never wanting to fall in love again. And for all the things he and others have done to hurt you I apologize. I apologize that you had to meet and fall in love with such a guy...before me. Sometimes I wish I met you first so you wouldn't be like this. But I just want to know.. Why should I be the one to pay the ultimate price? The price of loving you? Why should I be the one suffering for his mistakes? My love for you is honest, true, and everlasting if you only gave it the chance I could love you forever. So why do I get the bad end of karma? What did I do to deserve this? All I did was love you. I need to put this pain behind me. I need to say goodbye. But just know that I will always miss you. I will miss the friend that I could always call upon when I was having a bad day. I will miss the friend that I could run to and feel safe while I held you. I will miss the friend that I fell deeply and madly in love with. And I will always love you. There will always be a space in my heart just for you and I will always wonder what could have happened between us. I wish I was patient, but I'm not and I can't wait. But if at any time you ever feel like this is all a mistake, just call me and we'll set things straight. But until that day.. I'll miss you and I'll always love you...goodbye. |