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By Jon Date: 2002 Feb 15 Comment on this Work [[2002.02.15.19.22.25586]] |
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I wonder what you're doing right now. I wonder if you're staring at the phone waiting for my call. Or maybe you're on your computer writing in your diary thoughts of me...maybe even poetry. Or maybe you're talking to one of your friends telling them how much you miss me or maybe even how much you still love me. You know sometimes when I pick up the phone and I say "Hello" and no one says anything it's in those sometimes I think it's you calling me, but you're just too afraid to say anything. If it is then I want to say--don't worry, I know it has been awhile, but I won't bite. I do still love you after all. I would press star sixty nine, but I guess I'm afraid. I'm afraid that it won't call you back but someone else and I just had my hopes inflated. I'm starting to feel pathetic. I should be over you, and I pretend I am and I've fooled my friends into thinking I am...but I guess you can't fool your heart. I wonder if you ever think about the first time we kissed. You had been waiting for me to ask you out and finally after weeks of flirting I finally asked you out on a date. We rented the movie "Spy Kids" because you thought it was the "funniest movie ever." You felt like a fool for being a twenty-one-year-old in love with a movie fit for kids...I thought it was cute. Throughout the whole movie we played the game of "Touch-Laugh-Move Closer" and by the end of the movie I had you in my arms and your legs were wrapped around mine. The credits started to roll and neither of us wanted to get up, you looked at me and said "This is the part where you kiss me." And we kissed until the end of the credits. Or maybe you don't even remember our first kiss at all. You're probably out with some tough and extremely handsome guy. The type of guy that makes girls giggle when he smiles. You're probably doing the smart thing and moving on with your life. Maybe even falling in love with this Casonova. You probably forgot all about me. Or maybe right now you're wrapped up in his arms watching "Spy Kids" and the movie is about to end and you're going to seal the date with a kiss. Then that means you really did forget about our first kiss and it really wasn't as special as you said it was. If that's true... I wonder if you ever really loved me at all. |