By Me aka Niki
Date: 2002 Mar 03
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[[2002.03.03.17.30.23375]]

I want to...

Thursday was our last conversation, maybe forever
Conclusion: He doesn't think I'm special anymore, I guess I lost that place in his heart
It hurts, I have the tears to prove it
But hey, life goes on
So I finally realized he's not coming back, made the decision to stop caring RIGHT NOW
I tore up the last letter I wrote to him  
Blocking him from my memory
Opening my heart, pushing him out, closing my heart, as easy as that
Started with the reconstruction of the wall around my heart
Forgetting him name and face, his kiss and warm embrace
Stopping the tears before they sneak up on me, closing my mouth before his name slips out
Ignoring to see him with her
Pretending I don't care
Playing the disappearing act like he's never seen before
I'll prove to him, myself and everyone who doesn't believe that if I want to, I can be strong,I can stop caring,I can accept his absence,I can turn my back and walk away
I'll prove it, because I'm forcing myself to want it all