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By Jon Date: 2002 Apr 05 Comment on this Work [[2002.04.05.18.49.10961]] |
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I'm laying beside her. She's in my arms and we're both staring at the tv. I'm resting my face on top of hers and she tilts her head and I can tell she wants me to kiss her. This would mark our first date and our first kiss. But then all of a sudden I think of you...my best friend. You know it wasn't that long ago that both you and I were in the same exact position I'm in right now with her. We had met a few months earlier and you had just gotton out of a really bad relationship, so, you weren't really looking for any romance. Which was understandable considering what you had just went through. So I took a different route with you. We became the best of friends, there wasn't a day in the week that I didn't see you or at least talk to you on the phone for hours. There was just something about us. We just mixed together very well and our chemistry was just amazing. If I had to pick the perfect mate it would be you. I can actually imagine myself growing old with you. And then one magical night it almost seemed we were about to go to that next step. We had spent the whole day flirting, touching each other here and there and cuddling from moment to moment. Then we sat on my couch and started to watch tv. I was holding you really close and your cheek was pressed up against mine. You titled your face and I could feel the end of your lips touch mine. But I didn't kiss you. I just lay there holding you and I never leaned in to kiss you. We spent the whole night like that but I never made a move...I just lay there silent. We never spoke of that night.. Weeks went by.. And eventually months.. We never again reached that peak that would have pushed us into the next step. And now sometimes I sit and wonder. If I had kissed you that night, would things be any different between you and I? Instead of being my best friend would you have been the best I ever had? I'll never know. So now I'm laying here with her. And she tilts her head in to kiss me, but this time I tilt my head in as well and I kiss her. But I'm not really sure who I'm kissing. Her...or you...you my best friend...you...my darling you... |