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By Crystal Date: 2002 May 31 Comment on this Work [[2002.05.31.10.11.2727]] |
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To have someone to wake up, beside me every morning, Because they'd have it no other way. To have someone enjoy every minute spent with me, And to have someone feel when they met me that their prayers had been answered, That I was the one that made them happy, and I am the reason a smile forms on their face. To be with someone that loves me more, Than they had loved anyone else before, Someone that never got tired of me, That stood beside me at any given moment... to be the very best friend that they had ever had. And to hear them say ... "You are my dream come true." "I LOVE YOU!" and know that they are being truthful and never doubt it. GOD, it must be an amazing feeling, to make someone feel, They want to spend every moment of their future with me. ...But what if I didn't love them as much as they loved me? Struggling each moment I am with them, Fighting against my will to be free for months, To savor the pain, I know I will cause. To see the shock on their face, The tears streaming from their eyes, As I fumble for the words, to say I didn't want to be with them anylonger. Jesus, that has to be painful, To know I am hurting someone so, Ripping their heart out, To only save mine. I never thought of this before, Yes, I thought of your feelings when you said you did not know if you needed me, And I tried to fight back my tears, So you wouldn't know that was I breaking down inside, I couldn't. They were released, because I am deeply blown away, But, this.... I never thought how much you went through to do so. And now... I sit alone... Crying for you... And what I put you through, The way I made you watch, While I broke down, and collapsed at your feet in shock, Realizing, you had done this to me again. But it wasn't selfishly, It was something I could not control, And I am sorry that I put you through that torment, The misery you went through, To finally speak up... So very sorry... But God I still Love YOU so much. |