By Crystal
Date: 2002 Jun 16
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My Lie

I asked you if you thought we were still in love,
while lying in your arms this morning,
I waited for you to say that you still were with me,
and when you paused...
   I added that I didn't think so.
But that is just it...
  I am so deeply in love with you,
   that your pause hurt,
      and I had to say something...
so I responded that I didn't think so,
only to let you off the hook for not answering quickly,
and to try to maybe talk myself into believing, what I had said was true.
Yet, it wasn't, and it isn't, I love you just as much as I did before we broke up.
    Why did I say that to make things easier for you?
   What if I had not cut in...
     would you have spoken the words I longed to hear?
     You are the only one I ever wanted to share my life with...
Could my words have hurt you?
     I am sorry!  You know my true feelings!  You should by now!  I have never once fallen out of love with you, not even for one second, and as sad as it may seem to you, I know I never will.