By Jon
Date: 2002 Jul 13
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[[2002.07.13.14.12.22786]]

Until then

How dare I involve her in the complication that is me? If I'm not even ready to be alone how can I dare ask to be given time with such a jewel? Until I can look at myself in the mirror and confidently admire the emptiness that is on my right and left I will not be fit to be with anyone. Not until I'm ready to say that I love everything about myself will I be ready to completley love another. If I do not love myself completley how can I ever love someone else unconditionally without it being a lie? Or just co-dependancy.

I know what I want, but I know I should be looking for what I need.

When I am comfortable with being alone with myself then I will be ready to let another in.

Until then I dare not ask more of her...