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By Crystal Date: 2002 Sep 05 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.05.19.08.13190]] |
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Distracted by the pain of losing you, I lose myself completely in the memories. I begin crying without realizing it, until the salty tears touch my lips, and I can nolonger see which lane of the road I am driving in. And for an instant I feel so relieved to be alone to let it all out. I cry because I am hurt, I cry because I still love you, I cry for all the lies you have told, I cry because you don't love me as much as you think you may someday be able to love her. And then, Then, I think of your feelings, How selfish I feel to be wrapped up in my own pain, As to not be happy you have found someone that brings a smile to your face. My God, I am not just filled with this pain, that you have put here deep inside of me, I am filled with the torture I have put myself through, building my life as to where if this happened, I am left with absolutely nothing, except the REALITY, Of you walking away. Leaving me alone, not even wiping my tears, Just letting them stream down my face with such force, As to where my soul is pushed out of my body through them. Leaving me empty from the emotional accident I have been in. And you... You knew all along this would happen, It seems so close to premeditated murder on your behalf, |