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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Sep 22 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.22.10.30.812]] |
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Take me Back, when things were simple and when I was happy Before all that I thought about was weights and measures Before my whole life was plotted out for me, and before I even knew how to fear failure Take me back to when all the people I loved and cared for were still alive When I could go to Kentucky and be with my mami and my grandpa Harrison It hurts to think that we may never see each other again, especially if my life isn't righteous enough If I could go back, I would, if only for a day to appreciate all the beauty, and the emptiness of my thoughts, oh so long ago I miss my mamaw and papaw and the love that we had when I could sit on his lap, and talk about meaningless things, and feel relief, feel happy When a big strong bear hug affirmed that I was a good person A time when being taken advantage of didn't have any relevance to me I miss Susie Q The black dog that shared all my joys, sorrows, wishes, and dreams The person who listened to me without judgement the person who lived with me for a brief moment in a time, and served as my only confidante A sacrifice had to be made, when I was young, we were the same age As I got older, she got weak As I got busier, she got grayer Until the ultimate day, when she no longer roamed Times are changing, and where am I? What have I become? I'm so determined to find my path, am I running others over in the process Am I happy? One moment I feel as if I could jump off a bridge and fly The next I feel the desire to find the end of the earth and take a dive There is so much pain in the world, so much conflict I don't think my heart can handle anymore, I'm so scared, yet disappointed that I'm such a big coward Why do things like this cross my mind? I don't know what is going on with me I am so confused, yet I am happy to be alive..in one instance the countdown to USI has begun In another, I want time to stand still, but only in the happy spots So take me back, if only for a day To the happiness that used to fill me, and the doubt that used to leave me A place where people told me that they loved me and I believed them, no doubts, no anxiety And when time truly lasted forever, and the promise of a new day brought solace |