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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Sep 23 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.23.15.57.11317]] |
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What do I want? I want a love like no other, that just happens somewhere in the middle of a weekday, without expectations or doubt I want confidence to burn inside me like a flame I want happiness to ignite me and my whole being I want to be sure that I am suited for the profession that I choose I want to be out of here, over there where my dreams shall lead me I have been praying to God for him to send me where I am meant to go Of course, I have fear, fear is only natural, especially when dealing with the unknown I want to throw my head back and laugh Forget all my past sorrows, doubts, and defeats I want to hold my soul mate, make him happy, allow him and others to love me I want to know myself, like I do when I'm happy I don't wanna focus on negative things, like death and pain I don't want to be used, abused, or mistreated I don't want to be lead astray I don't want to be a failure at the thing that I love most I want to have a puppy dog, and watch it with the eyes of an innocent child I want to have a home, a big happy home, where all my friends and family can congregate I want a nice lime green VW bug, to just roam in Although, these are all material possesions, they are not my life, nor is money I want to be in love, like I've never felt before To wake up each morning to the man that I love and to know that it is only me, who can keep him interested with my wit, my intelligence, my charm I want to have children, perfect little beings, whose worried minds will never wonder as I have if they are loved, cared for, cherished who will seek only to be happy and to make others happy who will never know the hell of OCD, or anxiety disorder, or even depression I pray with all my being, that this is the last time I ever have to experience an ending I am never one for an end I don't do well with letting people go I hold onto you with my heart, because I love so many people, genuinely God is my savior, my shelter, my hope He leads me to the correct path, regardless of what I may see He humbles me through times like these when I feel as if I can barely wake up in the morning He brings new people into my life constantly So that I am aware, that I am one of many My problems are not unique or even personal but they belong to all mankind, we just have to learn to deal I place my trust in the father, and those on earth that have been sent as my angels Who you are remains to be seen, but you're there Keeping me smiling, even when I feel as if Satan is breathing down my neck You keep me alive, and youthful, and positive i want all these things to continue I want to grow stronger from my past sorrows, and to wake up to a new day with renewed hope and love for all, most of all, I need to quit wanting so much, instead just to let it happen, cuz sometimes what you want isn't what you need |