By RainbowChaser
Date: 2002 Sep 30
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I was raised on sunshine

I was raised on sunshine
I was loved so much that the threat of rain didn't affect me until my sophomore year of high school
that's where I truly learned to inflict pain on myself
my family loved me, maybe too much

They always tried to protect me and give me all that they had
but where did they go wrong?
why is it that i want to pack up my bags and move as far away as possible
to catch a plane and never look back

My grandpa's health is failing, yet he smiles and says he's fine
my grandma cries every night and prays that i will come home to her
and my mom..well she just sleeps and works her life away
that is her escape from reality

but i've grown to become an able and responsible woman
who never fully learned the ability to recognize defeat and give up and go home
I will never quit, until i've achieved all my dreams
until I can look back and see that I have helped people who have given so much to me

I was raised on Indiana sunshine
where the sight of cornfields blowing in the breeze in July excited me with memories
of fourth of july and butter running down my chin
where the smell of chlorine could be detected on my body every day of summer...rain or shine

But the time has come to bid the hoosier state farewell
i want to go where life is more exciting
to be surrounded by buildings, air, and people
to not know where I'm going or where I'm headed

I want to live with the hope that tomorrow will always be better
to remember when i was a happy child
to laugh at all the idiotic things I did
and vow to learn, and to grow stronger with each passing day

you say that I won't like it outside indiana
that where I belong is with you
but that is so far from the truth
it is almost a lie

I was raised in Indiana..and that made me who I am
but my dreams are bigger than the whole state of indiana
and i will not rest until I've explored all that my heart can take in
and maybe in my next life..i can accomplish all that i've set out, but haven't completed in this one