By callaphair
Date: 2002 Oct 01
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Malaise - 11/99

I thought we respected each other
I thought we looked at each other as equals
I thought we were each other's perfect
I was wrong...
How can you be so emotionless?
How can you talk to me as if I don't understand?
I understand perfectly.
You do not want me.
How can you not hurt?
How can you not feel?
How can you make my life sound like an after school special?
I am real.
I have real feelings and real emotions.
I have real hurt and I cry real tears.
Not only have I lost my lover,
My confidant,
My soul mate,
But I have lost my best friend.

Cry DAMN IT CRY!
Feel the hurt and the pain
Feel the emptiness and the loneliness
Feel DAMN IT FEEL!
I don't understand why you don't feel...
I want you to feel my pain,
The incredible absence which has
Entered my life.
I want you to know what I feel like
Each and every night
I gave myself to you
All of me.
I gave you my hopes,
I gave you my dreams,
I gave you the very essence of my life;
And now, none of it matters.
None of it will come back.
I cannot take back the good times.
I cannot steal your memories away from you.
I cannot wish evil upon you...
All I can do
Is hope that some day
You learn to feel,
You learn to share,
You learn to love.