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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Dec 01 Comment on this Work [[2002.12.01.09.41.20376]] |
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Hard as nails but this is entirely unneccessary what stepped inside your sensitive heart, turning it to stone entering your tongue to lace it with fire you are hard with me you seem so uncaring right now what are you trying to prove are you trying to hurt me does it make me paranoid when i recognize that your actions are hurtful does it make me selfish if i don't want to be hurt I told you my biggest fear, now you use that against me my friends can no longer guide me, i'm alone is what you say true do people really hate me, do they find me bitchy because i won't let them in how can i even let the slightest person in now my wall is being rebuilt how can you call myself your friend and go behind my back and stab me deeply then come around and rip my heart out don't expect me to smile, laugh, or even look at you you are all so hard you are all so uncaring what did i ever do to deserve this does it matter how much i've gone through according to you, actions speak louder than words how can you tell me that you lost your love for me in days how can you tell me that you love me, but aren't in love with me, in less than a couple of days but then you say i'm the greatest person ever, if that were true, would this be happening i feel as if my whole life is a joke except the punchline is me and i'm the only one who doesn't find it funny this is the greatest lesson that i keep learning over and over and over don't judge people based on others that is so hard, considering that all people seem to be alike my heart aches, i've never been received what i've given never, maybe i should just turn my heart rock hard instead of building muscles in my flabby legs i'll build muscle in my heart and harden it never let anyone in, and die alone do you realize that this is almost the blow that is going to send me over the edge that this is the blade that is the dullest, the most painful do you even care, that i pray to enter into an endless sleep i can't deal with this does that make me weak i used to be strong but every time i seem to get over what ails me, just before it's completely gone, pain finds me never, in my wildest dreams, would i believe that all my worst fears have come true that i have no one, in this whole world that all that i thought we stood for was a big lie oh, lord please take me from this nightmare it's not something new, to turn hard before my very eyes i'm used to it, but that doesn't make it easier you've had such a rough childhood, but you haven't grown, just as i haven't yet you pretend to be in control when really you're reeling, in love with me, don't hide it don't try to hurt me to make you feel better i don't care to stick up for myself, cuz i'm not worth it right now i will be out of here in less than 5 months you say, that people get to know me and run, i'll save them i will hide myself so far away from your eyes that you won't be able to reach me with your heart we were soul mates, but you let petty, jealous bitches ruin us you let them step in, and cloud your judgment what you thought was selfish was me standing up for myself but look what happened, i was trampled, left behind and for that i can never forgive you or her don't be hard with me come back to me the way you were when your smile made my heart smile and when your words were kind and true |