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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Dec 08 Comment on this Work [[2002.12.08.22.46.8841]] |
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A new beginning a new start another phase of life beginning while another ends i'm not sad i'm just feeling blah i'm going to be an adult in less than an hour how am i supposed to feel it's not like i imagined just this time last year, i was with a whole new set of circumstances if anyone had told me that trevor would be gone or that someone would have replaced him in my heart by now, i wouldn't have believed if someone would have told me that i would be prepared to graduate and would be wanting to start a family as soon as possible 20 has been a good age for me i've learned who i really am, who my friends are, and what i want for my future i've been challenged, i've been tested, but most of all i've survived my last year of college, my most traumatic breakup, and the truth that lies behind being friends after a breakup and what love means and what it doesn't but the most important revelation of all that i've grown past evansville that i can be an attorney and that i can survive anything i am now working to be a new person more responsible less jaded, but more hopeful and most of all the love i never knew: for myself you can push me around but i will still rise you can make me cry but still i smile i can never be held down for too long what would mami say if she could see me my guardian angels are keeping a close watch over me and my life is an open book how long ago when i awaited sweet 16 when i first got my license how naive how special that age was to me 21 is more than the legal drinking age its adulthood its strife but most of all its a new experience like everything else in life no more getting carded but yet, the slippery slope to marriage and children is approaching, too the slope to the workforce to reality the most important decision i've made is upon me i've decided to live life like there is no tomorrow to realize that life is for the taking and if i want something, no one can stand in my way i've had an awesome life now i'm ready to live more to laugh more, but most of all, i know tears last seconds but happiness and life last an eternity goodbye to merrill, jay, and trevor hello to california and the newfound challenges of a new love and the new hope of confidence for myself here's a toast to all the friends i've known both far and wide both present and absent thanks for being there for me, even if only for a short time here's a toast to me i've done some bad things, some good things, and just some things but i'm alive now, and i was put here for a reason its up to me to find out why and after all these years i'm learning to open my eyes and appreciate thank you god for this beautiful world but most of all for love and for the opportunity for a new beginning that will be my 21st birthday |