By RainbowChaser
Date: 2003 Jan 01
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New Year, New Promises

A new year is upon us, so its fitting to form new promises, new expectations to try to live up to
This year, I want to lose weight
no, honestly, fifty pounds
I want to be skinnier than I've ever been for once in my life

I want people to look at me, and ask,"Are you hungry, you don't look like you eat enough."
then, i'll smile, and say, "no thanks"
I want to be able to get the smallest size on the rack
then purposely flash it to all those people who used to call me fat

I want to be in a loving relationship
I want to value another and to be valued as an equal
To give my whole heart away, and be asked for nothing more, nothing less
but to receive the same in return, and to be happier with this man than any other i've known

I want to make and keep new friends
to get to know myself better through these other acquaintances
i want to be a kid again by laughing until my sides hurt, and feeling so comfortable, that I don't realize that I'm me
and I want to just know that for once, there are people I can trust, that I don't have to bear life's burdens alone

I want to be a strong, assertive woman
unaware of what the world is thinking around me
concerned only with my own power, strength, and knowledge
content to be myself, competing against no one

I want to succeed and prepare for law school next fall
to get an acceptance letter in march
from california western
and then show it off to all I know

this is a new year, new promises are in store
I need to appreciate family and friends, old and new
and thank god for the blessing of getting a break to find out who I really am
and from the looks of it, I'm not half bad, but next year will find me closer to my goal