By Crystal
Date: 2003 Jan 03
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New Year's

I had been dreading the clock striking 12 for days,
Scared that I would be thinking of you,
of where you were and who you were with,
afraid my new year's eve would be a bust,
filled with memories and tears.

Before I knew it...
  friends were literally dragging me onto the dance floor,
and then as soon as we stepped onto it,
I heard 10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...
             "Happy New Years!"
and all of sudden I realized someone had just swept me in their arms and had their tongue down my throat.
   At that point, I didn't know who it was,
I didn't even care,
it had been months since I had kissed anyone.
            The night eventually became a blur,
but I know I had fun, and I didn't think of you once!
    Until that next morning...
the entire way home, and I found myself, thinking of you,
and telling myself, that this year...
It would be so different,
   and different doesn't have to be a bad thing.
  I made a resolution to forget how much I Love you,
and at this very moment,
             I am already breaking it,
and the only thing left for me to do,
   is move on, with or without crying.  I am strong enough!!