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By Jon Date: 2003 Feb 06 Comment on this Work [[2003.02.06.18.16.11682]] |
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When you're in love you do some crazy things. You let go of your fears and insecurities and as fleeting of a moment as it may be you feel invincible. I loved Stacey and I was not ready to let her go. I had plans to attend the University of Southern California(USC) after high school, but that was not where my dreams were headed. My dreams were going up north in a 5'5 105lbs Filipino girl with brown hair who had aspirations to be a teacher. I spent two full semesters at the University of Washington with Stacey. The city of Seattle, in my opinion, is a miserable place. No wonder so many grunge bands come from there, it rains all the time and when it's not raining it's cold. I love the sound of rain, I just don't like it when it's in my face. However, despite my reservations about the place, I sucked it up and told Stacey I loved it there. I can't really remember the moments we spent together, it was pretty much just a blur, but a happy blur it was. For once in my short life I was happy. I had a place of my own and I was with my dream girl and we were engaged and happy...I thought. I'll never forget the moment I came home and walked in on her and some guy kissing. She told me to not be mad, I told her I wasn't. And I really wasn't. I don't get mad, I get sad. As hard as we tried to work it out afterwards it just wasn't the same. That single moment of deception destroyed anything I had felt for her. I thought we both wanted the same things. A house with a white picket fence, 2.5 children, a dog and friendly neighbors. You know, the usual crap. But I guess that's what I always wanted, she just never disagreed with me. I came home again one night to find her with the same guy. That was the last straw for me, I should have drawn the last straw long before then but I guess I was too afraid to admit defeat. A week later she caught me at the airport. Her hair a mess, crying, and makeup smeared she said to me "We're engaged, you can't leave me! What about this ring?" and she raised her hand to me and I saw the ring wrapped around her finger. I spent five confused weeks working at a Starbucks to buy that stupid ring. I sacrificed my life, wasted my student loans, a part of my youth to be with her, to give her that ring. Wiping the tears off my face I looked her in the eye and said "Keep the damned ring." And I boarded the plane and went back home. |