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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Feb 27 Comment on this Work [[2003.02.27.09.46.27356]] |
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I travelled to Princeton last night as if I was going to see you as if you would be waiting patiently for me as you always would before but you weren't there in my mind, i knew you were in ohio with moj possibly with another love with no thoughts of me hoping to cross your mind i drove the drive alone with no sounds but the sad songs on the radio and my tone deaf voice singing along in my heart, if i didn't go back there i could deny that you were gone that you had moved on that i wasn't a part of your life anymore, and that you were no longer a part of mine but the reality is that that trip suffocated me i couldn't breathe because the memories came flooding back so fast, that my head was spinning i just wanted to bottle up all the emotions and send them to you express mail so that you could endure half of what i did, watching you drive away, deciding to move on with your life, when i was still in the same stationary position the one where i was hopelessly in love with you devoted to your well being and desperately hoping for a fairy tale reunion but even our friendship has decayed like a fragile flower awaiting spring's sunshine the trip there brought memories of anticipation the first time i met you and all the times we had made that journey both separate and together we were so happy what kept us from deciding to try who decided we should separate i know you'd be much happier with me don't you remember that you were the happiest you'd ever been with me that you saw forever in my eyes and wanted to wake up next to me for eternity st. louis, the mc donalds, even gas stations serve as benchmarks to our relationship's memories our existence together is etched in the sands of time there is no erasing our chemistry or that for once your stubborness was subdued by the fact that you couldn't let someone go remember how you tried to get rid of me the first time only to fail miserably distance has only made it easier for you but in time you will live to regret i'm suffocated by memories of you so bad, that i think one day i will just cease to breathe, cease to exist unless you are back in my life |