By RainbowChaser
Date: 2003 Mar 06
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An Apology

There was a brief moment in my life where jealousy consumed me
I had never felt this odd sensation before
but was overcome despite myself
i tried to rationalize it, but it was wrong

I should never have thought those horrible things about you
it's not your fault
that he's an idiot and can't make up his mind
it was immature of me to put you down

the only bright side is that you were never aware of my feelings toward you
you had no idea that i harbored resentment
or that i secretly despised you
but how could you know

a chance meeting changed all that i had imagined
you aren't what i thought you were at all
your small act of random kindness
was something that struck me

i don't know if you knew who i was
i have a feeling that you did
i knew who you were
but i innocently feigned nonrecognition

thanks for helping me overcome a sick case of jealousy
right now, i just feel sorry for you
that you care for someone who has no capacity to return it to you
and that you will never experience his passionate embrace or hear those three familiar words, or know his undue devotion

how shallow was i to judge you by your appearance
you are a sweet girl
and i can admit when i'm wrong
but secretly, i'm still glad he chose me