it's killing me to not know
the choice you'll make
everyday i think of what you
might say to me
i don't even know when
to expect to hear the choice you've made
all i know is that i'll support you
no matter what you decide
and i'll miss you tremendously 
if you go
i can't help but think of how lonely 
i'll be if you leave
it's not that long
but, it will feel like an eternity
without you
it's killing me to not know
the choice you'll make
i try to think of how it will be 
for you if you go
although, i really don't know
i know it will be harder on you
and i feel selfish just thinking
how i would be affected
you'll deeply miss our boys
it'll be tough getting along without you
for so long
but i can handle it
i know which way you're leaning 
but, i don't know which way you'll land
it's killing me to not know 
the choice you'll make