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By poyen_fpy Date: 2003 Mar 24 Comment on this Work [[2003.03.24.00.27.6810]] |
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so you've changed your number, and haven't written for over a year now. those, plus the few times I have called and heard only the stranger in your voice. soured, we don't communicate anymore. you've said goodbye, although silently. and for the life of me, i don't know why i'm letting you, even though all that my mind screams is you. i guess sometimes i manage to convince myself that they are right. walk away, let it go, they say. that it's good for you, and it's probably best for me, too. when i told you i love you, i hoped our friendship would survive it somehow. to be fair, the situation was very sensitive and neither of us knew how to cope with it. so the words came and left a slit on the wrist in their wake, and i, caught up in my inexperience, pride and cowardice, left both of us bleeding. it's been over a year now, and we've been through so much. time has changed things for us. the silence still stings, but i understand. and when i think of the pain i've cause you, it stings even more. i know I've said this before (and a hundred times more in my head), but i wanted to tell you I'm very sorry for the pain I've caused and the selfishness I've shown. I didn't mean to hurt you. You matter to me. this will never change. And before your unsaid goodbye shuts me out completely, please know that I'll always be here for you. Nothing will ever change that. |