By Dana
Date: 2003 Mar 24
Comment on this Work
[[2003.03.24.11.50.15060]]

i'll call when i'm ready

i can't believe that you can actually get upset
that i don't call as often as you'd like
do you remember that i have two kids?
we live in two different places
and you don't know how my life goes
so who are you to assume i don't call
as often as you'd like
simply because i don't care to?
i do care. you're one of the most important
people in my life but,
my kids have been sick
and i've been busy
and i would expect that you would
assume that i've been busy
instead of assuming
i just don't care enough
it really upset me and the worst part
was that you didn't even mention it to me;
you mentioned it to someone else
do you feel you cannot talk to me? why?
you barely call me so how can you even get upset?
you tell me when is the best time to reach you
but, maybe that's not the best time for me.
i used to want our relationship back
but, you blew me off
now, you want it back and expect me
to give all i have right away.
i still want our relationship back but,
you've hurt me tremendously in the past
with all of your lies, betrayal, and judgment
and i'm still vulnerable
i know your operation changed your life
but, i'm still afraid to be hurt by you again
therefore, you'll have to accept that
i'll call when i'm ready.