By willtobe1
Date: 2003 Mar 25
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Unrequitable, part 1


"O, learn to read what silent love has writ:
To hear with eyes belongs to love's fine wit."
--Shakespeare, Sonnet XXIII

"Many waters cannot quench love,
neither can the floods drown it."
--Song of Solomon

"Love is the fart/ Of every heart:
It pains the man when 'tis kept close,
And others doth offend/ When 'tis let loose"
--John Suckling

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Hello there, Bright Eyes!

You didn't expect to find me here, did you?
But maybe you hoped (I hope you hoped)
For another encounter, like the ones before
   Or maybe even... Something More!

You haven't forgotten, have you
Those moments of meeting?
For me it was like suddenly opening eyes
Awaking from dreaming of being alive!

See, I spend most my time in a sleep-walking state
In shadows and half-tones of gray-colored life
Accepting unquestioned my fortunes, my fate
Ambling haply around until you happened by
And magicly, mysticly drew me awake
Blinking and winking and drinking in eyes
Dazzling, prismatic, hypnotically bright
Eyes brimming with life like a cup running over
Eyes dancing with light like the sun on clear water
As bright to my mind as a stage in a play-
I could not help myself; I could not look away!
I got lost in those eyes, found myself somewhere else
At least one horizon from where I had dwelt
An enchantment not only of all I could see
But of all that I was, all I felt, hoped could be!
And all of a sudden my molasses thick tongue
Became nimble with all that I've heard, seen or done
(But maybe you thought I was always that way
     not knowing how seldom I have much to say)
The best of my best I beamed out at you
I was hoping that you would wake up to me, too!
And I think that you did; we kept talking and laughing
Going on, on and on, like we could talk until dawn

And that look that you sent!
     (when I looked, saw you looking)
All arch-eyed and side-long, sly-grinned and twinkling
As if: "Did you REALLY connect what I meant?"
As if all our words back and forth to each other
Skipped like stones on some unseen romantical waters
And the real meanings rippled and pulsed and entwined
To be sorted out when they all washed up later
On the shores of my hungry-for-more-meaning mind

And it all made me Feel:
    Like a strong needful tide
    Was swelling up from inside
    As unconscious of sin
    As first love must have been
    O! such bittersweet hauntings:
    Not-knowing... but Wanting!

And your Look and my Feeling cried out:
    "Give us more!"
"Let's wade into those waters!"
    "Splash about and explore!"
But just as we seemed to concede that we need us
There's a pause, there we stopped-
    there's no future between us
Regardless of what else might still be in store
We must bow to the virtue of other agreements
That are sound, that are good
    that just can't be ignored
And those ripples of seeming to need Something More
Must fade as we watch, each from our own shore
So we lowered our eyes
    Turned our heads, walked away
       And went our own separate
          Best left alone ways...