i was really looking forward
to starting over again
but, apparently i have hurt you too much
for you to forgive me
i was young and stupid and naïve
and i should never have let you go
never have let you leave my life
for you will never leave my soul
and now i sit with regret
wondering if you'll think of me still
i will truly miss you
and, apparently, i deserve the pain
of loving you and losing you
we were the best of friends for so long
and in one instance, shattered
i was so wrong to deny you
i thought you were drifting from me
and couldn't bear the thought of losing you
so i pushed you away first
later realizing that you never intended to stray
it was my own insecurities seeping through again
now i sit with regret
wondering if you'll think of me still
hoping you'll think of me always
as i will always think of you
as i have learned from my mistakes