By Dana
Date: 2003 May 14
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With Every Beat Of My Heart

Before we moved I had so many fears, anxieties, and worries.
My life consisted of a constant panic with so many questions that needed answers.
I was terrified of what was to become of our lives for our children,
afraid that we were making the wrong decision, a wrong turn.

Scared that your inconsistent work ethics would strain upon us
and I would be forced to be the one to work in a place that I never wanted to be in
causing regret and resentment towards you and the move.

Fortunately, all of my panic and unorganized thoughts were unnecessary.
You have truly mellowed my tension and tamed my soul.
You have proven yourself time and time again 
with your sudden overly consistent employment.

I don't know if it was the need to be the man of the family,
the need to be the husband and provider or the need to be the supportive father,
whatever the reason for the change of lifestyle, I want to thank you
and tell you, as I don't express enough, that I am so proud of you.

Proud of positive changes you've made for yourself and for our family
and proud of your need to be a loving husband and father.
Your determination now and for the future has enabled me to breathe again 
and work hard for myself and for our family so that I can, 
one day, contribute financially as well.

I never expected the changes you've made and, have to admit, I was surprised. 
This new side that you have shown has only created more love and admiration for you.
You are my soul mate, the love of my life and my best friend.
I am so happy that we are still in-love after all these years, 
after all our struggles with all the future struggles to overcome.
One day we'll finally be able to relax and breathe together.

I am so proud of you and I love you
with every beat of my heart, with everything inside of me, 
with every obstacle we overcome, with every memory our family creates together.