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By Dana Date: 2003 Jul 02 Comment on this Work [[2003.07.02.12.47.19045]] |
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I find myself feeling so completely and utterly depressed so often. It's become a trait that now follows me around. I cannot rid myself of the unbearable anger and resentment and pain that I feel towards you now. We're so close yet I can barely stand to look at you anymore. The longer I live here, the more I grow to despise you. I can find so many obvious selfish qualities about you that it disgusts me and it's so difficult not to vent about all the pain I feel because of you, about all the frustration and rejection because of you. I want to explain to you all the emotions I have inside me because of you and yet, for some reason, I still care what you think of me so I don't. You're harmful to me. You're harmful to my family and to my ego. I can't wait to get away from you, away from this horrid place, never to return again. I've certainly gotten to know you better since I moved to your turf. I'd really like to go back to mine where I don't have to cry myself to sleep and I don't have to worry about the pain I may need to endure tomorrow because of you. |