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By E Belew Submitted by arkguy1000 Date: 2003 Jul 14 Comment on this Work [[2003.07.14.07.07.5961]] |
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Seems like these emails always come after a weekend, I know not why that happens. So, here I am at the JAM (Jane Anonymous Meeting). Yes (standing up from my chair), I confess I am a recovering Jane-aholic. I am doing better. I havent reverted to any long emails or late night phone calls lately. I must confess I do battle my desire for you quite often but I try and occupy my mind with other things. Plus these email ramblings that I do to you helps me. I have been dating some. It is like I am a painter and in my own eyes created a masterpiece which I have entitled the "inescapable presence of you". It embodies pieces of my heart and soul woven into this canvas of love. As we know, I have lost this creation. With each person I date, I begin work on trying to recreate this work of art but it seems like I cant capture that essence of love. So many unfinished works lay in a pile on the floor of my heart. But I havent cut off my ear or any other body part, so I have not gone mad yet. Who knows, maybe someday I will create another masterpiece. But then I think, Oh to be like Bill Murray (in Groundhog Day)and to be trapped in that point in time and to relive that first day over and over again. Such sweet ecstasy that would be. That would be my wish in life if there were a genie. Thank you for attending the JAM today and listening to my ramblings. I don't need to come as often as I did at one time but I will always be a Jane-aholic. |