By RainbowChaser
Date: 2003 Jul 20
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A year ago

Somehow you left my world a year ago
and it's taken me this long to pick up the pieces
to rearrange my soul
and somehow let the light shine in and get on with my life

a year ago, my world fell apart
i experienced the worst year of my life
you walked out and never looked back
never thought a second about the pain i might be experiencing

thank you for bringing me to poetry
for allowing me to grow
and for shutting me out
so that i may hear my own voice, and trust my own guiding light

i never thought you'd forget me
i never thought i would get past you
but somehow a year has come and gone in the blink of an eye
and i see a whole new person staring back at me from the mirror

those days are but a memory
a past that can never be relived
yet somehow i remember them with fondness
but realistically know, there's no going back

i was such an easy target
for the vulture who returned to pretend to pick up the pieces you left behind
who pretended to be my answer when you left me high and dry
but somehow his facade slipped, and he couldn't compare to you

but who could
i've lost weight, gained it, and then lost and gained it again
but somehow it doesn't matter
i know my boundaries

i know that i don't need a man
and that the decisions i make are for me
even when it cost me my body
i sacrificed my self confidence, when one predator took all that it had taken me to build up

somehow i'm stronger
i met another scavenger
but didn't let myself get too attached
only to find my knight in the most unlikely place

there wasn't an instant attraction
but somehow the connection grew stronger
just as as two years earlier with you
but if you saw me now, would you even recognize me

would i even acknowledge you, or would i hurry past
not eager to drudge up old memories
when i think of you
it hurts me to know that someone else is serving as my replacement

and you won't even acknowledge us
maybe it hurts too much
but you'll never get past me
when i thought i'd never get past you, and it took only a year

i've grown stronger, wiser and more beautiful
life takes strange turns
but in a year
i've become me