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By Cryingshame58 Date: 2003 Aug 07 Comment on this Work [[2003.08.07.14.30.29943]] |
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Discouraging Battle Before I met him, I beamed from within. I was vulnerable to his tricks that I perceived as magic. I truthfully have examined myself and without a shadow of doubt, I loved him to my full capacity. He allowed me to risk everything I hold near and dear to my heart to be close to him. I have heard it said that time heals all wounds and I have experienced healing from many different traumas from life. I realize that I could have lost far more from loving him. It was hell getting over him, but I knew I would. I despise misery. The human heart and spirit heals just as the human body can - inside out. I struggled to smile, but learned to smile again. Now, I think I was wrong that I could recover the missing link. Although I can smile and possess happiness, there is a missing part of me as if I had lost one of my senses, a limb or a breast. I know of no word to call or describe this lost part of me. I have often been puzzled and wondered why I haven't been able to accept this part of me is gone. Today as I gather these thoughts I have gained an insight. I didn't misplace or lose my missing link. It was stolen. I opened myself to him because he gained my trust. After I gave him nearly everything, he stole a part of me that I can't restore. The rest of my days I will and can exhibit a joyous life, but there will always be my missing link. |