By mandyrinorange
Date: 2004 Apr 25
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[[2004.04.25.22.07.7790]]

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so i drank a bit
and by a bit i mean a lot
and by a lot i mean too much

and i havent see you in weeks
but tonight you look at me like i am a prize
and i let you claim me

and you kiss me and you grab me
and for a minute i forget that i feel too fat to be loved
as you gently tug my hair and say im beautiful

but then the buzz wears off
and i am left with a hickey and a hard heart
because i always come home with less of myself than i had the night before

when the hell will i realize that what i want is right in front of me
that i dont need this drunken fool who always wants to take
and never wants to give

someday ill open up and tell you that i think you're amazing
and that i run to other arms because i fear yours wont open to me
and sometimes a girl just needs to feel loved

even if its fake
even if its fleeting
even if it isn't really love at all

one day it will be you

and it will be