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By Crystal Date: 2004 May 27 Comment on this Work [[2004.05.27.04.51.11776]] |
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You've changed so entirely much. I never know what is going on in your life. I only know whatever it is, it has nothing to do with me. I don't know what you like anymore, or even what brings a smile to your face. It hurts! It hurts, to have once been so close, to have known you so well, and loved you so much. To now question and be angry with myself. Because I can't seem to help the feelings I still have for that person you used to be, realizing that he doesn't exist anymore, that this new guy you've become, I know nothing about. It Hurts! To carry on a 3 minute conversation with a passing through, never laid eyes on before, stranger and know more about person than about the most important man in my life, a man I spent years with, laughing, talking, crying and loving. It hurts! When we talk, at times, I want to tell you "I Love You". Yet, I stop myself from doing so, pausing to wonder exactly who "You" really are. It makes no difference if you will admit this, whatever the case, I know you must love her. Because you don't have that desire, that aching need to talk to and have me be a part of your life anymore. Between these changes in you and the other problems I am facing and dealing with in my life right now,there is no doubt that being in love with the shadow and memory of the person you once were is the most painful for me. It HURTS, more than you will ever know! Maybe she will be careful enough not to rely on your words and promises to always be there for her,to love her, and may she have the patience and strength it will take to understand that in time, some people just simply change. It hurts! It hurts more than I would want, even her, to know. |